I found it. A special something that I have to look forward to each week that involves taking time out for me. There is a studio here in town that only offers adult dance classes. I tried the hip hop last week and had my butt kicked and now I tried ballet today. Both days I came home with a sense of accomplishment and energy to take on whatever is on my plate. It really put me in a great mood and the rest of the day I had an optimistic outlook. . . .It has taken me until now as a mother to realize there has to be something in my week for me. I highly believe in a family being a strong family unit and spending the majority of their time as a whole but It has taken me this long to realize each person in a family needs to take time to strengthen whatever it is that makes you YOU. If it be a sport a hobby a talent whatever. You then as a stronger self can make the family as a whole that much better. We are now finding something mr husband can do for him . . .