Days like today

Oh my sweet babies, it's days like today that I just can't get enough of your goodness. Nights like tonight that I just crawl into bed and talk with Elizabeth as she rubs my back and I run hers. I could just go pick up baby Reed right now and cuddle the night away. I spent nap time updating baby books for them and looking at baby pictures. It just reminded me what a blessing these little ones are to have. How I need to not take a minute of it for granted and how I need to document it all so I can go back and read about these little moments later when they are in those drive you crazy teenage years:) I wish my mom would have documented more, and now that she is gone I can't ask her about these stories but I just sit and imagine  that my childhood possessed the same sweetness and perfect moments that I share now days with my little ones. This will go in my second printed blog book and I hope as my children read this one day they know what special moments they had with their parents in their early childhood. Like last night in the middle of Elizabeth finishing dinner, as she sat in unders only, asked her daddy for a hug and at the same time Reed came hugging daddy from behind as tight as he could. Or just a few afternoons ago when I looked outside to see an older sister with her arm around her younger brother just looking into the yard. Things that make a moms heart melt. The one that really got me this week was walking into the living room to see Elizabeth saying a prayer on her knees with her arms folded and eyes closed asking her Father in heaven to bless the members in our family. I am so thankful for these sweet babies of mine. Better go..... mr husband is home with a gallon of ice cream and a red box :)

This week....

I love the weeks that leave me excited for the week ahead, the weeks that things are on the up and up and you feel like your head is on straight. Last week was good......
   

      Since I have been having these darn health issues I just have been a little out of the sorts you could say. Last week my breathing was not nearly as labored as weeks previous and my energy was back to almost normal. I was getting so depressed that when the day was 1/2 was done I was spent and had no energy or motivation to accomplish anything. I felt so bad especially for my sweet babies. But not last week no, I was able to feel good and had fun making dinner, playing outside with the kids and finished Elizabeth's snow white costume. And the icing on the cake came Saturday night when I went to a church activity especially for women, or as I felt, especially for me. It's called Woman's broadcast and we hear from the Prophet and leaders of our church. I felt inspired, I felt important, and most of all my faith was strengthened.  I loved hearing our prophet, Tomas S. Monson speak to us all on judgment. He told of a man who was not pleasing to look at and a particular trail he had in his life when he came to a town to receive medical treatment for the abnormalities on his face. He spoke of his difficulties finding somewhere to stay when he traveled for these treatments and that he even would have been happy to settle sleeping on a rocking chair on someones porch. There was one woman who was able to look past his outer appearance and see his inner greatness and was more than happy to let him stay at her inn as he traveled through this area. Our prophet then told of her going to a green house years later; there was the most beautiful flower planted in a rusty old pot. This woman asked her friend," Why do you have that beautiful flower in a rusty old pot?" the woman replied," I ran out of pots and knew this beautiful flower would not mind spending a little time in this pot." This flower stood taller and more beautiful then all the flowers around regardless of the pot. President Monson then told of how he could imagine this man being sent to Earth in his rusty old pot but our Father in heaven knowing of the beautiful flower that harbors inside regardless of the appearance of the pot. I loved this and needed to hear this.

      After the broadcast ended there was some socializing and it was so nice to sit and talk with friends. I am learning how powerful we can be. How powerful our words are. I am realizing that we posses the opportunity to make or break someones day and that we can have a daily affect on someone if we just take the time to do so. Sometimes all someone needs is a little love, or help, or to feel accepted or to know someone cares. It is a wonderful feeling is it not? I don't think we can ever over do caring. The quote that was stressed that evening was "Charity NEVER faileth" and how true it is. Throughout this past week or two since I was MIA for a bit not feeling good I was amazed at how many women either called, texted, e mailed or came and asked how I was. I can't tell you how good it felt to have others care and want to know how I was. It has inspired me to reach out to others. See how they are. Sit by someone I don't know and get to know them or even do a little service for someone I care about. I am also learning not to forget to compliment or show  I care to my friends and family. I think sometimes we get in the rut of things but friends love to hear when you think they have done something good, or that you care. Husbands need to be reminded you are their biggest fan and think the world of them and that they are amazing for fixing the toilet and of course our sweet children need to be praised daily for the wonderful  little people they are. Just last week Elizabeth decided her name was going to be "Hannie". I have never heard this name neither has she, she just made it up! It was so cute and she would not let me call her anything else. Reed is growing like a weed and walking! He loves it and the two of them play a lot more now that he is walking. The weather is cooling down, life is falling a bit more into place and I am ready to take this week and focus more on my scriptures, my prayers, my family and my blessings....
a few other things I wanted to write so I can come back and read:
do not spend money for that which is of no worth, don't spend time on that which is unimportant and most of all there is no greater success then success in the home.
And I hope anyone reading this knows I am not giving advice but just documenting this for what I know I need to hear and come back to read and remind myself:)
And here is Elizabeths Snow white dress.... I still need to make the cape thingy she wears:)

oh my it's been too long.....

Have you ever had a time in your life that things would not just settle. Maybe you had a feeling off being a little frazzled, not yourself, or felt like life was just a little more complicated then you had imagined. That's been me as of late. The long absence of blogging has mainly been due to health problems I was experiencing. I suddenly had moments where I felt really tired and out of breath, those moments turned to hours days and after a week I went to the Dr. I had x rays, ct scans and blood work done. During this little scare I was able to ponder what it is that is really important to me. What it is I want out of life and what I need to do to be the happiest I can be. I will tell you this...... Money or material things were the farthest away from my thoughts or goals to reach this happiness. During this time all I could think was how can I make decisions that will lead my family to the best place we can be, mentally, physically, and spiritually. Let's take a few steps back real quick......
    About a month ago I suddenly became a little baby hungry. I started planning things and decided "I" thought it was time. I had been thinking about it a lot. I was also thinking about where we are going to live, you see Mr. Husband and I received a very strong impression it was time to "go home" as in Mesa. I keep trying to tell myself differently but this is what my heart is telling me and I can't deny it. That leaves us in a little sticky situation with our home and the market and I wont get into that but we are going over the options..... anyways so there are obviously some big decisions in front of us and as soon as it was coming up to baby making season this breathing thing kicked in..... or as I have come to understand it.... my sign it's not the season quite yet. And that's what I love about life and the plan for me. I love that there is a plan and it's Him who is guiding it and I love how one way or another I receive answers to life's most difficult questions such as should I have another baby. So there was my answer to that one. And now we are still figuring out things with the house.... I can't help but think of our life thus far.......
           2005 we were living in an apartment, we felt prompted it was time to buy a house. We went and signed to buy it only to realize things were going to be too tight. RIGHT before we moved in porter received a great raise and we had exactly the same left over each month as when we lived in our apartment.....
        2008 after we had Elizabeth, I felt prompted to stay home. I told porter I was going to tell my boss the next day that I only have 2 weeks left of my part time job. That next day Porter came home to tell me he was promoted and once again we had the same amount left over every month without me working now....

    I have been given experiences in my life to teach me to trust in the Lord  and the prompting I receive from Him and the blessings will come and I feel like this is another one of those moments. I feel we are being guided and directed and I will be the first to say it's hard not knowing exactly where were going to be living or how it will all work out but one thing I know for sure is that it WILL WORK OUT. So I guess with all of this going on I have been a little off. A little anxious, a little less on top of things and not quite myself. I am realizing just to take this experience as a time to show faith and to quit worrying. I need to enjoy this time and not worry about what's to come because I am in His watchful care. So here is to me washing my worries away, reminding myslef to trust in Him and enjoying the life I have been given.....